Nievity

I can’t seem to think inside the box.
I can’t live within a square.
I can’t become something I’m not, someone who always has an A+.
I can’t live for a world that would have me for someone I’m not.
I will not live to be controlled.

They tell me to make a choice to prepare for what’s to come.
How do they know what is to come they are not prophets.
They have no say in my life. I do control my own destiny.
And when the time comes I will shine like no other.

I am told that I must choose what I will become.
Well there is no major or school for what I want to do.
I will save the world.

665

A hastily scribbled message,
When in the course of the day,
A fear overtakes me,
A fear I know well.

So I grab my pen,
And scribble a note on my hand,
It’s meaning,
I assure myself,
Will be clear when I look back.

Then at the end of the long day,
I return at last to my home,
Sit down in my chair,
And breath freely at last.

Then I look down at my hand,
For no reason that I can say,
And see my hastily scrawled note,
I stop,
It’s meaning escapes me.

What was I thinking,
When I wrote this down,
Lost to time,
Lost to space.

I thought for sure I would know,
Even at my lowest,
I am me,
And I know me.

But there it sits,
Meaningless art,
A code without a cypher,
A person without a place.

I Cried Today

I cried today,  

Though I don’t know why,  

Maybe there’s some sadness floating around in the air, 

I am allergic.  

 

Maybe someone died who didn’t have a family, 

Or one that cared anyways,  

I would gladly morn for all those who will, 

Not be missed.  

 

Or maybe everyone else is sad,  

And I just caught it,  

The flu of tears,  

Contagious in the worst way.  

 

Either way,  

I cried today,  

And I don’t know why.