Idealistic Strife

I know you always say,
That I can do anything,
If I only just believe.

I’m not one to fight,
Against that idealistic strife,
But I thought maybe you should know,
Your not helping anyone,
With that kind of talk.
The world is far to complicated,
To be solved with cheesy one-liners,
And fortune cookie encouragements.

And yet when I need help,
Those sorts of things are all I hear,
Does it help you assuage your guilt,
Of not helping those in need?

If you really believe that you can do anything,
Then why have you not yet helped me?

Either you are more powerless then you thought,
Or you really don’t care.

Blog Journal 8/20/19

Hello everyone, as I said last week I have decided to call these Blog Journals instead of State of the Blog Journals. It’s just easier to say and much less of a mouthful. I have a bunch of things going on this week and I should tell everyone some important things about my schedule this week. But first…

2D Con

I am going to 2d con this weekend, my wife is selling things there and I will be spending Friday to Sunday helping her cell things and all my spare time is going to go to playing the arcade games they have set up there. This is all going to be a lot of fun and I think I need that time. As you might expect this is going to affect the schedule of this blog. But first let me go over a few other things that are affecting my schedule.

Burn Out

I’m not really sure how it happened but I think I’ve been working on to many creative projects at once. I’ve been frantically searching for my next long term project by trowing stuff at the wall and seeing what sticks. And I don’t want to call it a mistake since I’ve learned a lot and written a lot of things I’ve liked. But I came home from work and in addition to worrying about work I’ve been worrying about “finding” my next big project and I just fell asleep for three hours. I think I do need to take a breath and not worry about my writing projects for a bit.

So now, how is this affecting the blog.

First I will be putting Hidden Sanctuary on hold for a time. Honestly I am pondering dropping hidden sanctuary all together–but I don’t want to make a choice while I’m stressed out about it, so for now I won’t be worrying about it.

Since I will be at 2d con all weekend and since I don’t want to worry about writing while I’m doing that, there will be no blog post Friday. In addition, I don’t know if I will be able to post on Monday–I might–but I can’t predict what will happen from where I’m writing this on Monday night. the week before, so you will have to wait and be surprised.

The good news is I have posts for everyday this week other then Friday so this won’t affect things to much.

Everything Else

I’ve been replaying Pokemon Sun lately, but that’s all I’ve really had time to play or read. Another reason to take some time to rest and refocus. Hopefully I will have more interesting to talk to everyone about next week after 2d con.

See you all then….

Sol of my Soul

Sol of my soul, light of the flame within me, you have the power to render a hundred forests to ashes.

Sol of my Soul, you are the ground, solid and ever steady beneath my feet, but if you anger, cities will fall like the futile works they are.

Sol of my Soul, you are the ever-flowing water of my pure hart, and from if you shall see, all shall be drowned in my sadness.

Sol of my Soul, you are frigid from the many heart brakes I have endured, and you breathe this air onto my foe so that they too may feel the cold sting of my hurt.

Sol of my Soul, you are the darkness that makes man and beast, though beast man may be, tremble and cower on their knees, do not underestimate me.

Sol of my Soul, you are the light within me the pure essence that I was born with and will die with though I may hurt people I will never be truly dark, and you represent a gift still sleeping within me.

Sol of my Soul, you are the wind within me, the bringer of flight, that my soul be not tied down, you are the everlasting wind that can be my guide and my will in life. Yes you are the power of wind within me the power of my sol my true light not merely light, but the power of my emotions that will guide me in the future.

But that is only my light. What is yours and will you let your emotions guide you?