As someone who has always considered himself a halfway decent writer, I’m having a bit of a crisis right now. I can’t find a word for something. You probably understand what I mean but let’s be clear anyways. What we are living through right now, the experiences and the odd emotions that come along with it. I’ve been looking for a word, or even a phase to help me compartmentalize this experience. To put it in a box and to help me understand.
I’ve heard people call it: “this moment,” “this Covid thing,” “this era,” and many more, I’m sure you’ve heard some yourself. But those all feel like their avoiding the problem. And I’m not sure that’s the right way to go about things. No for me, things need to be given voice and form. And that’s really quite hard. We just don’t seem to have the word. I could of course, make up a word. But I would need the correct sounds, the right letters, with just the right inflection. To make the word that I envision in my head.
But the truth is, that kind of perfect word for this just doesn’t exist right now. And it’s entirely possible it never will. And we will end up never able to fully express how everything made us feel. We will all just have to learn how to live with that.
I hope you are all doing as well as you can giving the world we now all live in right now. I’m not very good at writing about these sorts of things. And as such I have stuck to my poetry and fiction for the time being. Perhaps maybe soon I’ll be able to write something meaningful about everything that’s been going on.
For now I have a few things to say. First my views have been going down, I’m not sure why and I don’t think there’s anything I can do about it. And I get more out of posting on this blog then just the raw catharsis that is my view count. But that does mean I need to take that into consideration when thinking about how much time I spend working on my blog and how much money I put into it as well.
For now my lowest view posts are actually my Strange Worlds. So while I will keep working on that for the book project I’ve been working on, I’ll stop posting that here. Poems are going to continue and I may even have a short story or two to post. But for now, it is what it is.
I’m probably still going to have more staggered posts for Poems. I’m doing a lot less right now, and that means less inspiration for the most part. And yes I am trying to do more positive poems and less negative ones, but that can be a struggle as well.
Thank you for your time and understanding everyone.
I’ve been furloughed from work starting today.
And that is probably the most ominous opening sentence I’ve written in my life, fiction and poetry included. It really is a scary time, but I’m staying calm and doing all the things that I feel like I should be doing.
I intend to start a daily schedule to keep my sanity and be prepared should I get another job or be called back to the old one. Who knows if that’s even possible at this point. But we seem to live in unprecedented times, so who knows.
I intend to keep updating this blog, I’m just not really sure with what at this point. My more depressing writing project, Lost Sun, is being put on hold. I think I want to keep working on Strange Worlds. But if that becomes my main writing project I may not want to keep posting that story here. But I’m just not sure, I’m going to be trying to keep my writing habits strong in any case.
As for details, I don’t really have any, I was staying home still sick and expecting to return to work next week on Monday. When I got the email from work telling me that they didn’t have anything for me to do and that I should return my work-phone and badge.
Sorry this blog post lacked my usual flair, but I’m also using this to update my family and friends as well.
Until we meet again.
Unfortunately I am ending my Lenten meditation poem spree early. As well as my abstinence from social media. Can you guess why? Yup its Covid-19 aka carona virus. I came down with cold like symptoms last week and have been forced to stay home from work. The symptoms are not that bad. But some of the worry and the stress has taken it’s toll on me and trying to maintain this blog has fallen by the wayside for right now. It’s strange–I have plenty of time to write–but I have not been able to get my motivation going enough to keep up with the daily posting schedule I had planned.
So while I do intend to post as I come up with things to post. From now until I can get my act together there are not going to be any guaranteed posts, on any guaranteed schedule.
Thanks for your understanding everyone.
It’s shameless plug time, my wife Ashley just launched her etsy store. If your in to hand made geeky crafts you will want to check this out. And who knows you may want to check this out anyways. She’ll be adding more stuff as she get’s a chance so feel free to check back latter if you don’t see something you like.
The website is: https://www.etsy.com/shop/Ashstillmakesthings
Tomorrow I’ll go back to my usual fair. See you then everyone.
My google news feed notified me that Mark Hamill has deleted his Facebook account over the fact that Facebook has refused to remove false or misleading news. That’s the context I found myself in as I pondered the social media problem. And to be clear it is a problem, and that’s not the solid condemnation that you might think it is on it’s face (heh).
Or maybe my soft condemnation of social media doesn’t come as a surprise to you if you found this post through twitter or Facebook. But writers with a far more solid critique of social media still use those websites–and the reasons really couldn’t be clearer, if you are a writer, you need Facebook and twitter to get your name out into the world. Ask the New York Times, or the Washington Post. Facebook and Twitter IS THE MEDIA.
And that really is the problem, social media has become the primary distributor of information. One of the reasons I started this blog was to move away from social media without fully rejecting it. Simple one liners and status updates simplify complex moments and ideologies. And reading the article attached to it is optional.
But time can be like a river, in that it usually doesn’t flow backwards–usually. All that is to say I don’t think social media is going away, and I’m not sure it should. I have made friends that I don’t think I would have made, and kept friends I think I would have lost without social media. And that really is a problem, we need social media, and it’s okay to admit that. And it’s okay to acknowledge that Facebook is not handling it’s power well without making like Mark Hamill and deleting your account.
But then what do we do about this? Well I don’t have any solutions for this right now. But I’m going to keep thinking about this and I’ll let you know if I come up with anything, but this post has already gotten longer then I thought it would.
Until we meet again.
Hello everyone, the 2020 memes are showing up on Facebook and Reddit so it must be 2020. Mind you the first memes of the new decade have not been hopeful but that’s a different topic for a different time. There are going to be some changes to the blog coming now that the new year is upon us. And I wanted to take a moment to let everyone know what’s coming.
Firstly the blog journals are going the way of the dinosaur. They put too much presser on me and I ended up not doing them because of the stress–classic issue. So instead I’m going to be writing smaller blog updates that will include some of the same stuff I put in my blog journals. But there is not necessarily going to be any consultancy.
Despite the above change I’ve decided I want to post more. Doing that is going to take some work though. I’m going to be adding a few different kinds of posts. The first kind of new posts is going to be called Wandering Thoughts–where I just kind of write about whatever is on my mind. What I say in these posts shouldn’t be taken as any kind of gospel since most of them are just going to be passing thoughts and nothing more. But it should be fun and it will get me more practice with writing.
Next, there are some changes going on with the big fiction project I have been working on for this Blog. I can’t seem to make up my mind what kind of project I want to do for this blog in terms of fiction even though I know I want to do one. So it may be a bit before you see any more long form fiction from me. But that is something that I want to do and I will be posting some episodic stories here on this blog at some point this year.
That’s all for now, I hope 2020 is treating you well.
Hello everyone, the end of the year has started to turn into a haze and it’s honestly been more then a little overwhelming. I’ve really fallen behind on getting these blog journals done and that’s put a lot of pressure on me which makes me not want to work on the blog journals. Oh the joys of life.
Anyways, I did manage to still get a lot done this year. All the writing experiments and the poems. And even starting to write blog journals as well. A lot of projects fell by the wayside as I lost motivation to work on them. But even from those I’ve learned a lot about how to best work on projects and stay motivated to accomplish them.
As some of you may have seen I’ve started working on a new project here. I intend to work on this more next year and I hope you will take the time to read them as they come out.
I also started another book, a story I’m calling Lost Sun. My last book didn’t get published so it’s really just sitting on a shelf somewhere–but that’s okay–I’ve been really excited working on Lost Sun. As of yet I have not released any sort of excerpts from my book here on this blog, and I’m not sure I will. But I do intend to keep sharing my progress with you as I keep working on it. Currently I’m working on chapter 8 and considering I just started working on this book in late fall that’s quite a bit of progress.
I have written so many poems this year…honestly I’m surprised at myself. Over 130 poems were posted on my blog this year. That’s amazing that I could write that many.
I also have 180 blog followers, 1 email follower, and 60 social media followers for a total of 241 followers. In the grand scheme of things that’s nothing, I know that. But I’m so proud that I could have gotten even that many. And I am thankful to all of you for reading this one crazy persons writing on the internet.
I’m going to take things a little easier these last few days of 2019, the last few day’s of the decade. But I do intend to have a reflection of some kind up before the year ends, so look forward to that.
Let us all meet again in the new decade.
Hello everyone, more of a blog update then a blog journal today. Thanksgiving is coming up and I am feeling a little burned out. So I’m going to just have one poem this week and I’m going to take the rest of the week off from blogging. If I have the energy I might do some reblogs of some of my old stuff to fill the space.
Honestly I’ve been trying to branch out more to write a wider array of things. But I’ve been struggling to come up with anything that would work in this format. I even thought about doing podcasts of some-kind since wordpress has the functionality for that. But it would just be one more thing I have to worry about on a weekly biases.
In addition I’ve been working on my book, and while that’s a fun writing project I hesitate to post any excerpts from my book here. Maybe I’m just paranoid about that sort of thing.
At the end of the day I’m one person with a full time job and a lot of other side projects so this sort of burn out is probably something I should expect to happen and have a back up plan for, like maybe some kind of bank of poems I can pull from to post during times when I just can’t get my act together to write.
Oh well the tl;dr is, only one poem his week, maybe I’ll do some re-blogging of some old stuff if I have the energy.
Until we meet again everyone.
Hello everyone, today I’m going to share with you a few writing updates. Nothing major going on in terms of my writing. And the adult working life had been taking up the rest of my time. Now that I have a few day’s I’ve taken off for my wedding anniversary I want to spend most of that time with my wife.
Book Progress is slow but steady
Part of me wishes I could be as fast a writer as those NANOWRAMO people. Writing a whole book in the month of November is a minor miracle considering it takes me the better part of two years to write a full book. Maybe Lost Sun won’t take as long as the first book I wrote. But I’m only on chapter 4 so things are not looking good on that front. According to my computer the file for Lost Sun was created on August 19th so that’s at 2 months and only 4 chapters in. Yeah a full book in a single month would kill me.
The Cull of other writing projects
As I continue to make progress on both my book and my table top RPG system I’ve needed to cut down on more side projects. These projects were not something I’ve really talked about here so nothing really major. But it was really hard for me to convince myself that those writing project needed to be canned so I could focus on the projects that I actually wanted to get done. In the process of working on those projects I created–and then deleted a whole other blog….
Games and things
With Pokemon Sword and Shield coming out soon I’ve had a hard time concentrating on other things. I did pick up a game called Digimon Cyber Sleuth but I doubt I’ll finish it before the new Pokemon game comes out and that’s taking up all my time. Gosh I hope I can find the wherewithal to work on my writing during that time.
That’s everything for this week everyone. Until we meet again.