State of the Blog Journal 8/6/19

Hello everyone,

I’m trying something new, something a little more personal. I’m going to be doing short weekly updates about what’s going on with my life and what you can expect to see on my blog that week. It’s sort of an update/journal type thing where I share with you a little bit about what’s going on in my week. I don’t expect this to get super personal, but I will provide enough context to let you know how life is going on my end.

Poems and Things

I’ve been attempting to post more frequently on my blog and that has required a lot of changes to how I write. I can pound out a poem in a few short seconds some days, but that comes at a price, namely spelling. Oh gosh it is embarrassing to realize that I’ve misspelled something on what was otherwise a really feeling poem. Oh well, blogs can be updated with correct spellings after the fact at least. I do have autism and dyslexia so sometimes I think it’s a miracle I can write as well as I do.

I’m Ending Words from the Road

I’m losing motivation to work on my “Words from the Road” poem project and the last time I posted one it had zero views. So I’m going to stop posting new entries in that project. I won’t be removing the one’s I’ve posted from my blog though. That won’t always be the case with project that end early, I might just take some things down. But in the case of “Words from the Road” that will remain up on the blog.

No “Hidden Sanctuary” this week

For those of you who have not noticed I’ve been working on an episodic story project called “Hidden Sanctuary” I think I’m getting sick this week though so I’m going to take it easy and not worry about posting a new one of those.

What have I been up to…

I feel like I’m not transparent enough as a writer. I’ve heard it said that all writing is political. I’m not sure if I agree, but I would be hard pressed to deny that politics has an effect on writing, so I feel it only fair to be transparent about where I get my news. And I also like to show my other sources of inspiration so I will also be posting what games I’m playing and what I’m reading if your interested.
This week I listened to the five thirty eight politics podcast, they were covering the mass shootings this last weekend from a more statistical perspective which makes me feel sad and detached.
As far as video games are concerned I’ve been really into Hollow Knight lately. It’s atmospheric and oddly poetic and reflective. Though it’s hard for me to put my finger on why. I’ve been wanting to write more about games, but I’m not really sure how to do that so we will see were that goes.

That’s everything from me, have a good week.

About My Strange Fiction

I was once told that my poetry was amazing but my fiction sounded like it was a Saterday morning cartoon. I probably should have been insulted, but honestly my love for poetry is matched only by my live of cartoons and animation in general.

My tastes have always been eclectic, but my matto has always been; have fun while writing. If something stops being fun its hard for me to finish, or even get enough motivation to think about finishing.

As a result I like to write thoughtful poetry, I view much of my poetry as philosophical, my meditations on the world around me and how my mind interacts with said surroundings.

But my fiction is always about what makes me happy. What I find, fun, and cool to write. And as someone who grew up in the late 1990s and 2000s much of what I feel makes entertaining fiction is the same things that made me fall in live with shows like Pokemon, Digimon, Transformers, Dragon Ball Z, and other cartoons from that era. In some sense I never really grew up, I still like to keep up with the latest cartoons and video games, many of which are for an audience much younger then me.

So in some sense I’ve never really grown up–but I feel as though in other ways I’m one of the few people who have. I don’t hate things just because it’s cool to, and I refuse to see something just because it’s the “it” thing to see. I read the Gane of Thrones books, but I have yet to see the show due to time constraints. And honestly…I’m not really sure I’m missing much. I love Star Wars, and Law and Order, and plenty of other “normal” things.

But when I use my imagination to try and write some kind of story, I always seem to rewind to a ten year old kid who thinks; “wouldn’t it be cool to go on an adventure with monsters, and magic.” And so that’s what I end up writing.

Now, part of me feels like I’m makeing excuses. I’m about to post some episodic stories here on this blog that some people are going to call childish. And when thay happens and they ask me why I’m going to point them to this article. But I also wanted to spend some time thinking about the strange dichotomy of my writing.

Now as for this blog, the reason I don’t have separate a blog for my fiction has mostly to do with money. I pay for this domain and paying for a second one that’s probably only going to have a few followers seems like a waste of time.

But there is a second reason–a lot of my fiction helps to inspire my poetry, even when it doesn’t seem like it. Character poetry, and poems about the history and setting of the world is something I do all the time. And I like to be able to tag what poems go into what setting.

Now, would I ever consider separating my fiction into a separate blog. I’d never rule it out, but there would have to be some benefit for me, and honestly, right now there just isn’t.

Anyways this has all gone on long enough, my basic point is that I have two very different styles of writing that have always existed side by side, dispite how different they are. And I don’t think that’s a bad thing. But those are just my rambling thoughts….

Changing Creative Priorities

Hello everyone, I am once again braking the forth wall of blogging to give everyone an updated on how things are going and what I’ve been working on,

Some of you may have noticed I’ve been posting less often. This is because I’ve been spending a lot of my creative energy and time on a more long term project that I don’t really want to share online just yet. The long and short of it though is I’m creating my own table top rpg. If you’ve heard of D&D it’s something like that.

The good news is I still intend to post a poem here on this blog once a week. Most likely on Monday’s. But I do work a full time job so the day could shift depending on how busy I am at work.

In addition I am going to be putting “the Layered City” on hold for now, honestly I’m the worst when it comes to finishing creative projects some days so that might disappear of my blog at some point and go in the unfinished bin indefinitely, but we will see. Along with my table top project I have a story I’ve been working on to help me flesh out the world of this table top rpg that I intend to post at some point, so look forward to that.

All this being said I’m going on vacation next week and nothing is better for my creativity that some time off and a new environment to draw inspiration from. So you may still see some new things being posted here more frequently then I would otherwise be able to.

I also have some opinion articles that I have saved as drafts but I have not gotten around to finishing yet. I do hope to keep doing that as the mood hits me. But don’t expect anything consistent.

That should be everything for now. Thank you all for your time and support.