This is Important

Warning: the following post is political.

I have spent a lot of time trying to come up with something meaningful to say about this election we have coming up. And I kept failing, I’m not a political annalists by any stretch of the imagination–though I do have a sociology degree my focuses has never really been on standard politics–I’m more a Pollock person. Even then I’ve spent most of my life using my words in poetry and fiction. And as such I’m really out of practice when it comes to these sorts of things.

So after spending way to much time thinking about it this is what I’ve decided to say: this is important. Yes all elections are important, but right now this one is more important. And it is essential that we don’t lose sight of that. I have seen far to many people become disillusioned with our political system and start to think that these things don’t matter–but they do.

You may not get the politicians that you want, you may not get the political system you want, you will most likely not get to live in the kind of world you want. And you have every right to be angry and frustrated about that. But this election right now, it still matters. And dismissing the two sides as being the same in this moment is simply false.

I would hope we can all be mature enough to understand that getting what we want isn’t the only reason to vote. And it isn’t the only reason to care, that’s selfishness. We must care even when we have every reason not to, even when we get nothing for ourselves from the deal. A world where people care enough about others to vote on their behalf is a good one, it’s hard to achieve, but it’s worth striving for.

I only have 300 or so followers–and I know not all of you even live inside the US. But even then I think this is still worth writing–still worth thinking about.

You matter,
This election matters,
And your vote matters,
Even when the system and everyone in it tries to tell you it doesn’t.

You may not be able to get to the world you want to live in, but I think it’s very possible to get to the world that someone else needs right now.

That’s all I have–try to get some sleep everyone–until we meet again.

More Updates

Hello everyone,
I hope you are all doing as well as you can giving the world we now all live in right now. I’m not very good at writing about these sorts of things. And as such I have stuck to my poetry and fiction for the time being. Perhaps maybe soon I’ll be able to write something meaningful about everything that’s been going on.

For now I have a few things to say. First my views have been going down, I’m not sure why and I don’t think there’s anything I can do about it. And I get more out of posting on this blog then just the raw catharsis that is my view count. But that does mean I need to take that into consideration when thinking about how much time I spend working on my blog and how much money I put into it as well.

For now my lowest view posts are actually my Strange Worlds. So while I will keep working on that for the book project I’ve been working on, I’ll stop posting that here. Poems are going to continue and I may even have a short story or two to post. But for now, it is what it is.

I’m probably still going to have more staggered posts for Poems. I’m doing a lot less right now, and that means less inspiration for the most part. And yes I am trying to do more positive poems and less negative ones, but that can be a struggle as well.

Thank you for your time and understanding everyone.

Wandering Thoughts 2/21/2020

So I’ve been fighting with myself about something for a long time. Namely should I start a second blog for my fiction and let this blog just be a poetry blog. Honestly it’s a much harder question then you would think. There are so many things to consider, and it’s not like I’m a big blogger with thousands of followers who can start a second blog and have a good number of people follow me there. What will actually probably happen is I will be shrinking my install base on each blog. And popularity is a huge part of how your site shows up on search results.

But having a more clear purpose for my blog would be nice instead of having the “whatever I want” kind of blog I have right now. While this is mostly a creative writing blog even then there are some things that I post here that don’t fall under that already broad category. And I’m thinking of adding even more kinds of posts that might not so easily fall under that category.

But the thing I keep coming back to is the cost. Free blogs are nice and all but to have a lot of control over a wordpress sight you need a subscription plan. Which is per site not per user, meaning the perks I have for paying doesn’t cross over to any other blogs I might make. That’s a real hit for someone who isn’t making any money on this endeavor. I could always just run a second free site, but then I feel like I wouldn’t come up as much in web-searches.

Maybe I’m thinking to much about this. But for now I think I’m going to stick with the one blog. Life is far to short to be losing sleep over something this trivial, and one website is clearly easier to run then two.

Oh boy this is like the third time I’ve felt the need to justify having a blog called Wandering Poems where I also post things that are not poems–even though nobody asked. I need to get more sleep.

Until next time everyone.

Wandering Thoughts 2/7/2020: Oh No It’s Friday

For some reason I can never understand I always think I’m going to be more efficient on Friday then I actually end up being. I think of all the writing projects and different errands I have to do and then put it off for Friday. After all I can stay up as late as I want on Friday, after all I can go to the store without feeling like it’s a waste of time. I can go to the gym without feeling like I’m going to be way to burned out the next day. It’s Friday, it doesn’t matter.

But Saturday is a day too, and it’s one I probably shouldn’t be sleeping through. No matter what I tell myself having a healthy and relaxing weekend is important. But sleeping all day becomes I burned myself out on Friday probably isn’t a good idea. But on the other hand treating Friday like just another weekday probably isn’t a good idea either.

Part of the issue is my introvertedness interacting with my Autism in all the worst ways. It took me a long time to realize that going into public and interacting with people was something I found exhausting. And that can include something as simple and benign as going to the store and picking up a few things. And I still have to make a dentists appointment to but the thought of having to call them and make the appointment, and then going in and talking to people who I don’t know is just draining for me.

The correct answer to this problem is obvious of course–don’t put everything off until Friday. If I spend time on another weekday working on some of the things I put off until Friday I’m going to feel a lot better about what I do have to get done over the weekend and probably be a lot more efficient about it. But it’s easy to say that’s something I’m going to do, actually pulling it off is another matter altogether.

Oh well, for now it’s Friday, so maybe I’ll worry about it next week. See you all then….

Wandering Thoughts 2/4/20: What did I do Wrong?

As far as life goes 2020 has not been good so far. I’ve been sick for most of it. And even though I’ve done my best to take care of my immune system, somehow, my fever came back this week and I’ve missed two more days of work. And of course that’s also had some major negative effects on my writing schedule.

So what’s the issue here? Have I not been talking proper care of myself? I’ve been doing some deep thinking about this and considering what bad habits I have. And I think the issue is sleep.

I have a writers sleeping habits. I stay up late working on my writing while the ideas seem to be flowing freely. But I also have to get up early to go to work. And I think this might be putting me and my immune system in danger.

So problem solved right? Well not exactly…. I find I’m generally more creative at night. So I have to do more then just adjust my sleeping habits. I also need to readjust my writing schedule. And that’s going to be hard. When I feel the most creative and motivated is not something I know how to control. But I think it might be possible.

Of course this might mean I hit some scheduling hiccups with this blog. But what else is new. But the most important thing right now is that my health. So I’m going to focus on that and just write when I can.

Wandering Thoughts 1/14/20: Facebook is a Problem Without a Solution

My google news feed notified me that Mark Hamill has deleted his Facebook account over the fact that Facebook has refused to remove false or misleading news. That’s the context I found myself in as I pondered the social media problem. And to be clear it is a problem, and that’s not the solid condemnation that you might think it is on it’s face (heh).

Or maybe my soft condemnation of social media doesn’t come as a surprise to you if you found this post through twitter or Facebook. But writers with a far more solid critique of social media still use those websites–and the reasons really couldn’t be clearer, if you are a writer, you need Facebook and twitter to get your name out into the world. Ask the New York Times, or the Washington Post. Facebook and Twitter IS THE MEDIA.

And that really is the problem, social media has become the primary distributor of information. One of the reasons I started this blog was to move away from social media without fully rejecting it. Simple one liners and status updates simplify complex moments and ideologies. And reading the article attached to it is optional.

But time can be like a river, in that it usually doesn’t flow backwards–usually. All that is to say I don’t think social media is going away, and I’m not sure it should. I have made friends that I don’t think I would have made, and kept friends I think I would have lost without social media. And that really is a problem, we need social media, and it’s okay to admit that. And it’s okay to acknowledge that Facebook is not handling it’s power well without making like Mark Hamill and deleting your account.

But then what do we do about this? Well I don’t have any solutions for this right now. But I’m going to keep thinking about this and I’ll let you know if I come up with anything, but this post has already gotten longer then I thought it would.

Until we meet again.

Wandering Thoughts 1/8/2020

Note: This is my first time trying my Wandering Thoughts format. Everything about this is subject to change.

Coming up with a good way to manage time without cutting off the oxygen to my creativity has been one of the most challenging things about adult life. As it turns out though, what I’m doing with that time is far more important than how much I’m doing.

Maybe it’s the odd combination of Autism and ADHD, but I can hold down multiple streams of thought at once. As long as I am not talking to someone, or thinking about talking to someone. That takes my full and undivided attention, and if I’m thinking, or pondering anything else I can’t actually hear anything being said to me–much to my wife’s frustration.

When I worked in customer service at Whole Foods I would find myself exhausted and unable to manage my time at all. The constant human interaction put me in a cycle of burn out and then work again. If I wanted to get any writing done I ended up taking time off for that just so I could overcome the time I needed to recover from that burnout.

Now that I work in an office environment though I have the time and the energy to not only get all my work done–but to also keep some of my creative ideas going in the background. This has been amazing for my productivity as it assures I won’t get to board with a task at work, and also means I will plenty of things to write the next time I get a chance to do that.

That’s all for now, see everyone next time.

Blog Journal 11/8/19

Hello everyone, today I’m going to share with you a few writing updates. Nothing major going on in terms of my writing. And the adult working life had been taking up the rest of my time. Now that I have a few day’s I’ve taken off for my wedding anniversary I want to spend most of that time with my wife.

Book Progress is slow but steady

Part of me wishes I could be as fast a writer as those NANOWRAMO people. Writing a whole book in the month of November is a minor miracle considering it takes me the better part of two years to write a full book. Maybe Lost Sun won’t take as long as the first book I wrote. But I’m only on chapter 4 so things are not looking good on that front. According to my computer the file for Lost Sun was created on August 19th so that’s at 2 months and only 4 chapters in. Yeah a full book in a single month would kill me.

The Cull of other writing projects

As I continue to make progress on both my book and my table top RPG system I’ve needed to cut down on more side projects. These projects were not something I’ve really talked about here so nothing really major. But it was really hard for me to convince myself that those writing project needed to be canned so I could focus on the projects that I actually wanted to get done. In the process of working on those projects I created–and then deleted a whole other blog….

Games and things

With Pokemon Sword and Shield coming out soon I’ve had a hard time concentrating on other things. I did pick up a game called Digimon Cyber Sleuth but I doubt I’ll finish it before the new Pokemon game comes out and that’s taking up all my time. Gosh I hope I can find the wherewithal to work on my writing during that time.

That’s everything for this week everyone. Until we meet again.

Blog Journal 10/11/19

Hello everyone, as you may have noticed it’s Friday and I am writing my blog journal today instead of on Wednesday. Honestly I got distracted working on one of my projects the table top rpg I’m designing and as such forgot that I needed to write a blog journal until latter. Not a big deal over all but I have no idea how many of you actually look forward to reading these so I tend not to stress out about it to much.

As you might have guessed I’ve mostly recovered from being sick though there are a few lingering symptoms that I’m working through. Once I’m back up to 100% I should really remember to get my flu shot. Maybe if I write it down here I won’t forget.

Poems, Micro Stories, and blogs

As some of you might have noticed I have started writing micro stories (or maybe just short, short stories, I’m a little unsure of the definitions) you can check out my first one here. All in all I liked how it turned out and I want to write more of these, but I’m not really sure show to optimize my schedule and creative time with this new addition to my repertoire. I could write micro stories and then write one less poem that week. Or I could write two poems and a micro story–but honestly I’m not sure how to is going to feel on my end considering the whole point of only doing two poems a week is to keep myself from burning out. I’ll let you guys know what I’m going to do about that next week. But for now enjoy the new posts you’ll be getting.

Other Projects

As I said earlier I got distracted working on my Table Top RPG system that I’ve been designing. And so that’s coming along nicely. But due to that not a lot of progress has been made on the book I’ve been working on writing. Honestly I’m not really sure which of these two major projects I should be prioritizing. So it seems like each week I end up working more on when then the other–then I wonder if I should have been working on the other project instead. Maybe one day I will understand how to manage time properly–but it is not this day.

What have I been reading and playing

I’ve finally gotten around to doing some reading, and I’ve been working my way though the Hundred Thousand Kingdoms by N.K. Jemisin it’s good so far but I’ll have to wait until I’ve made my way all the way though to know for sure.

I’ve been playing a lot of games since I was so sick over the past few weeks. I’ve been working my way though another play-though of Pokemon Sun, I’ve been trying to find time to play Fire Emblem Three Houses, and I even took a crack at this new RPG called Indivisible (no relation to the political movement group).

I think that’s going to have to be all from me for now. But I do intend on blogging for re-blog Friday as I always do. Have a good weekend and I’ll talk to you next week.

Blog Journal 9/15/19

Hello again everyone everything’s been going going well lately and nothing of any amount of stress to report. This is going to be a bit of a short one since there really isn’t much to say about this week (I’m starting to notice a trend).

Reblog Friday

Some of you may have noticed already but I am starting something called reblog Friday, where I reblog a poem that I had posted here sometime ago. I think it’s going to be fun to look back at some of my past posts. I may include a little reflection on the poem as well including some incite as to what I had been thinking at the time. These will always be on Friday, I was thinking of having them be on Monday, but I think for now that will continue to be a dead day in terms of posting.

Project and book updates

I have made very little progress on my book this week. That being said I have been working on some short stories and I have launched a new blog. However I’m not going to provided a link to that blog just yet. The reason? Well the blog is for short stories connected to my esoteric Table Top Rolplaying universe. And many of the characters and plots there require the context of having played in some of my games. I will cross post, or reblog any stories that I think might be worth your time if you’re a reader of this blog.

What have I been Reading and Playing Lately

I’m ashamed to say I still have not had time to do any reading. However I have a few books now that I want to read when I get a chance. I’ve also only been working on my play-through of Pokemon Ultra Sun as far as video games go, so nothing new there.

The Obligatory Politics Post

Politics are about to get really messy again. And so I’m not going to be mentioning my news sources and podcasts that I’ve been listening to on this blog. If you follow me on social media you still might see me talk about politics. But I wouldn’t count on it. Know that I just don’t think this is a good place for politics even if it is something as casual as where I get my news posts. I guess that’s the kind of world we live in. Once 2020 passes I may start talking about that stuff again.

All right, see you next week.