Checking In

So how’s 2020 been going for all of you? I’ve been fairly productive all things considered. But for whatever reason I’ve been struggling on what long term projects to work on. As usual I probably have too many and I need to cut down on things.
Also there is another thing you’ve probably noticed. I have not been writing Wandering Thoughts blog posts at all since the start of 2020. The year is almost over, surely I must have some thoughts on things. Well I do, but putting things into words has been hard in 2020. I know it’s a writer’s job to put things into words, and I can still get poems, and fiction written no problem, as well as my table top RPG project (Though things have slowed down a bit with that).

Part of me suspects I’m going to have a ton of things to say at the end of 2020. Spiritually and politically, it has been an eventful year. But in terms of major life events I’ve mostly been sitting around, not doing anything. At least I have the option to do that though, we have plenty of money saved and a good living situation that isn’t to expensive. So we can survive until the worst part of the winter is over. I know a lot of people don’t have that option.

Which brings me to the final thing I wanted to write about. Up until this point I have mostly opted to focus on writing poems and fiction and avoid political topics. However I have a few ideas for posts around the 2020 election, and I think I’ll work on those. Don’t worry–it’s nothing really in your face. When it comes to politics I’ve always preferred to be a deep thinker and less of a reactionary (I’m no twitter rage poster). However, I still feel that I should warn people so they can be prepared. I’ll tag the post as political and maybe even make a blog category for it so people know what they are getting into before they read.
I could just make a political blog but–I already have to maintain Cryptix Monsters and the last thing I want is to have another Blog to worry about (this is just a hobby after all). Also I don’t think I’d be able to post enough to be able to maintain a political blog–I just don’t have enough content Idea’s outside of sharing news posts and things I agree with–which doesn’t make for very engaging or important content.

As things stand I think I’m ready for 2020 to be over. But there’s still a lot of living to get through before that happens….

Finding the Word

As someone who has always considered himself a halfway decent writer, I’m having a bit of a crisis right now. I can’t find a word for something. You probably understand what I mean but let’s be clear anyways. What we are living through right now, the experiences and the odd emotions that come along with it. I’ve been looking for a word, or even a phase to help me compartmentalize this experience. To put it in a box and to help me understand.

I’ve heard people call it: “this moment,” “this Covid thing,” “this era,” and many more, I’m sure you’ve heard some yourself. But those all feel like their avoiding the problem. And I’m not sure that’s the right way to go about things. No for me, things need to be given voice and form. And that’s really quite hard. We just don’t seem to have the word. I could of course, make up a word. But I would need the correct sounds, the right letters, with just the right inflection. To make the word that I envision in my head.

But the truth is, that kind of perfect word for this just doesn’t exist right now. And it’s entirely possible it never will. And we will end up never able to fully express how everything made us feel. We will all just have to learn how to live with that.

Update: Things have not gone well.

Hello everyone,

Unfortunately I am ending my Lenten meditation poem spree early. As well as my abstinence from social media. Can you guess why? Yup its Covid-19 aka carona virus. I came down with cold like symptoms last week and have been forced to stay home from work. The symptoms are not that bad. But some of the worry and the stress has taken it’s toll on me and trying to maintain this blog has fallen by the wayside for right now. It’s strange–I have plenty of time to write–but I have not been able to get my motivation going enough to keep up with the daily posting schedule I had planned.

So while I do intend to post as I come up with things to post. From now until I can get my act together there are not going to be any guaranteed posts, on any guaranteed schedule.

Thanks for your understanding everyone.

Updates and Things

Hello everyone, the Lent season is starting, and I have decided I will be cutting myself off for social media for the duration. If you are reading this on a social media site it is because I have WordPress’s automatic social media posting on, I will not be going to those websites myself to make any corrections like I do normally.

I will still be posting here on my blog, in fact I will be doing daily (weekday) meditation poems here on my site. So make sure you follow my blog if you want to see more of those.

I don’t really intend for these poems to be super Christen in nature despite the fact that I’m doing them for Lent, so if your worried about that don’t be. In fact I’ve already started posting my meditations even though Lent doesn’t start until Wednesday. Check it out here.

I will still be posting short stories during this time, and on days when I post those I will not be posting meditation poems. However, I will not be posting any Wandering Thoughts during this time so you will have to wait until after Lent for those.

Alright that should be everything for now, see you next time.

Wandering Thoughts 2/21/2020

So I’ve been fighting with myself about something for a long time. Namely should I start a second blog for my fiction and let this blog just be a poetry blog. Honestly it’s a much harder question then you would think. There are so many things to consider, and it’s not like I’m a big blogger with thousands of followers who can start a second blog and have a good number of people follow me there. What will actually probably happen is I will be shrinking my install base on each blog. And popularity is a huge part of how your site shows up on search results.

But having a more clear purpose for my blog would be nice instead of having the “whatever I want” kind of blog I have right now. While this is mostly a creative writing blog even then there are some things that I post here that don’t fall under that already broad category. And I’m thinking of adding even more kinds of posts that might not so easily fall under that category.

But the thing I keep coming back to is the cost. Free blogs are nice and all but to have a lot of control over a wordpress sight you need a subscription plan. Which is per site not per user, meaning the perks I have for paying doesn’t cross over to any other blogs I might make. That’s a real hit for someone who isn’t making any money on this endeavor. I could always just run a second free site, but then I feel like I wouldn’t come up as much in web-searches.

Maybe I’m thinking to much about this. But for now I think I’m going to stick with the one blog. Life is far to short to be losing sleep over something this trivial, and one website is clearly easier to run then two.

Oh boy this is like the third time I’ve felt the need to justify having a blog called Wandering Poems where I also post things that are not poems–even though nobody asked. I need to get more sleep.

Until next time everyone.

And Now for Something Different

It’s shameless plug time, my wife Ashley just launched her etsy store. If your in to hand made geeky crafts you will want to check this out. And who knows you may want to check this out anyways. She’ll be adding more stuff as she get’s a chance so feel free to check back latter if you don’t see something you like.
The website is: https://www.etsy.com/shop/Ashstillmakesthings
Tomorrow I’ll go back to my usual fair. See you then everyone.

Wandering Thoughts 1/14/20: Facebook is a Problem Without a Solution

My google news feed notified me that Mark Hamill has deleted his Facebook account over the fact that Facebook has refused to remove false or misleading news. That’s the context I found myself in as I pondered the social media problem. And to be clear it is a problem, and that’s not the solid condemnation that you might think it is on it’s face (heh).

Or maybe my soft condemnation of social media doesn’t come as a surprise to you if you found this post through twitter or Facebook. But writers with a far more solid critique of social media still use those websites–and the reasons really couldn’t be clearer, if you are a writer, you need Facebook and twitter to get your name out into the world. Ask the New York Times, or the Washington Post. Facebook and Twitter IS THE MEDIA.

And that really is the problem, social media has become the primary distributor of information. One of the reasons I started this blog was to move away from social media without fully rejecting it. Simple one liners and status updates simplify complex moments and ideologies. And reading the article attached to it is optional.

But time can be like a river, in that it usually doesn’t flow backwards–usually. All that is to say I don’t think social media is going away, and I’m not sure it should. I have made friends that I don’t think I would have made, and kept friends I think I would have lost without social media. And that really is a problem, we need social media, and it’s okay to admit that. And it’s okay to acknowledge that Facebook is not handling it’s power well without making like Mark Hamill and deleting your account.

But then what do we do about this? Well I don’t have any solutions for this right now. But I’m going to keep thinking about this and I’ll let you know if I come up with anything, but this post has already gotten longer then I thought it would.

Until we meet again.

2020

Hello everyone, the 2020 memes are showing up on Facebook and Reddit so it must be 2020. Mind you the first memes of the new decade have not been hopeful but that’s a different topic for a different time. There are going to be some changes to the blog coming now that the new year is upon us. And I wanted to take a moment to let everyone know what’s coming.

Firstly the blog journals are going the way of the dinosaur. They put too much presser on me and I ended up not doing them because of the stress–classic issue. So instead I’m going to be writing smaller blog updates that will include some of the same stuff I put in my blog journals. But there is not necessarily going to be any consultancy.

Despite the above change I’ve decided I want to post more. Doing that is going to take some work though. I’m going to be adding a few different kinds of posts. The first kind of new posts is going to be called Wandering Thoughts–where I just kind of write about whatever is on my mind. What I say in these posts shouldn’t be taken as any kind of gospel since most of them are just going to be passing thoughts and nothing more. But it should be fun and it will get me more practice with writing.

Next, there are some changes going on with the big fiction project I have been working on for this Blog. I can’t seem to make up my mind what kind of project I want to do for this blog in terms of fiction even though I know I want to do one. So it may be a bit before you see any more long form fiction from me. But that is something that I want to do and I will be posting some episodic stories here on this blog at some point this year.

That’s all for now, I hope 2020 is treating you well.

2019 Reflection

So 2019 is coming to it’s inevitable end and honestly I’m not sure how to feel about that. I had intended to write a poem. But with everything that has happened this year both personally and in the world at large I’m not really sure where to start.

So here is my overall reflection on 2019: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Whew, glad I got that out of my system. In truth 2019 has been a really stressful year, I got a promotion at work which has been a lot more work then I thought it would be. The political situation has only gotten more crazy and polarized. And a lot of the fandoms I’m apart of have started to become polarized as well. I’ve even had to leave some of those communities for the sake of my mental health.

But the end of one opportunity is the start of another. So I’m trying to look at this as an opportunity to have more time to play other video games and work on other projects like my writing.

And as long as we’re on the topic of projects I’ll be carrying over some of my projects to 2020. I’ve been working on another book called Lost Sun and that’s been coming along nicely. I hope to have that done by this time next year–but one never knows how long a writing project is going to take.

I’ve also been working on my own table top rpg and I’ve been really excited about that. Though that’s been a little harder then I thought it would be. But I’ve been determined to get that up and running.

And last but not lest my “Worlds” Project that I’m going to be posting more of here. That’s something that I’ve been looking forward to working on. But I’ve been having a bit of a hard time coming up with good idea’s for it. I hope to tell you more about this particular project in 2020 once I’ve gotten the details hammered down.

On a more personal note I’ve been having a lot of fun with Table Top RPGs this year and I’m finally starting to read more as well. So I hope that next year brings more fun personal changes as well. I keep thinking that I might actually be able to get to my video game back log as well. But who knows how 2020 is going to play out. Not me that’s for sure.

See everyone in 2020.

Blog Journal, Twas the Blog Before Christmas

Hello everyone, the end of the year has started to turn into a haze and it’s honestly been more then a little overwhelming. I’ve really fallen behind on getting these blog journals done and that’s put a lot of pressure on me which makes me not want to work on the blog journals. Oh the joys of life.

Anyways, I did manage to still get a lot done this year. All the writing experiments and the poems. And even starting to write blog journals as well. A lot of projects fell by the wayside as I lost motivation to work on them. But even from those I’ve learned a lot about how to best work on projects and stay motivated to accomplish them.

As some of you may have seen I’ve started working on a new project here. I intend to work on this more next year and I hope you will take the time to read them as they come out.

I also started another book, a story I’m calling Lost Sun. My last book didn’t get published so it’s really just sitting on a shelf somewhere–but that’s okay–I’ve been really excited working on Lost Sun. As of yet I have not released any sort of excerpts from my book here on this blog, and I’m not sure I will. But I do intend to keep sharing my progress with you as I keep working on it. Currently I’m working on chapter 8 and considering I just started working on this book in late fall that’s quite a bit of progress.

I have written so many poems this year…honestly I’m surprised at myself. Over 130 poems were posted on my blog this year. That’s amazing that I could write that many.

I also have 180 blog followers, 1 email follower, and 60 social media followers for a total of 241 followers. In the grand scheme of things that’s nothing, I know that. But I’m so proud that I could have gotten even that many. And I am thankful to all of you for reading this one crazy persons writing on the internet.

I’m going to take things a little easier these last few days of 2019, the last few day’s of the decade. But I do intend to have a reflection of some kind up before the year ends, so look forward to that.

Let us all meet again in the new decade.