Wondering Thoughts: Writing for Myself

It has been some time since I’ve had the wearwithall to write one of these posts. I feel like I owe all of you a status update. Yes, I have lost my job completely. And yes I am struggling to get it together to get another one. But with all the bad in my life right now, there are good things happening. And one of those good things is what I want to talk to you all about today.

I have learned something about myself. And about how I write, I write for an audience. The eye rolls some of you are experiencing right now are natural. Yes, I know this is a blog and people read it, yes, I know that should have been obvious. But bear with me for a moment here.

I have always attempted to make something of my writing. To make my writing worth something. Either a poem that would give something to someone. Or a story that would somehow make me money. A lesson imparted so deeply into me is that my time must be redeemed for something of value.

But what if that’s not true?
What if the joy of writing can be found in not sharing? In writing something I want to read, and for no one else? What if there is something I can gain from my writing beyond the potential financial or philosophical value it can generate.

What is that thing? Well the truth is that I don’t know yet–that’s something I need to write to find out.
These are just some thoughts I’ve been rolling around in my head as of late.

Until Next time….

Wandering Thoughts 1/14/20: Facebook is a Problem Without a Solution

My google news feed notified me that Mark Hamill has deleted his Facebook account over the fact that Facebook has refused to remove false or misleading news. That’s the context I found myself in as I pondered the social media problem. And to be clear it is a problem, and that’s not the solid condemnation that you might think it is on it’s face (heh).

Or maybe my soft condemnation of social media doesn’t come as a surprise to you if you found this post through twitter or Facebook. But writers with a far more solid critique of social media still use those websites–and the reasons really couldn’t be clearer, if you are a writer, you need Facebook and twitter to get your name out into the world. Ask the New York Times, or the Washington Post. Facebook and Twitter IS THE MEDIA.

And that really is the problem, social media has become the primary distributor of information. One of the reasons I started this blog was to move away from social media without fully rejecting it. Simple one liners and status updates simplify complex moments and ideologies. And reading the article attached to it is optional.

But time can be like a river, in that it usually doesn’t flow backwards–usually. All that is to say I don’t think social media is going away, and I’m not sure it should. I have made friends that I don’t think I would have made, and kept friends I think I would have lost without social media. And that really is a problem, we need social media, and it’s okay to admit that. And it’s okay to acknowledge that Facebook is not handling it’s power well without making like Mark Hamill and deleting your account.

But then what do we do about this? Well I don’t have any solutions for this right now. But I’m going to keep thinking about this and I’ll let you know if I come up with anything, but this post has already gotten longer then I thought it would.

Until we meet again.

Wandering Thoughts 1/8/2020

Note: This is my first time trying my Wandering Thoughts format. Everything about this is subject to change.

Coming up with a good way to manage time without cutting off the oxygen to my creativity has been one of the most challenging things about adult life. As it turns out though, what I’m doing with that time is far more important than how much I’m doing.

Maybe it’s the odd combination of Autism and ADHD, but I can hold down multiple streams of thought at once. As long as I am not talking to someone, or thinking about talking to someone. That takes my full and undivided attention, and if I’m thinking, or pondering anything else I can’t actually hear anything being said to me–much to my wife’s frustration.

When I worked in customer service at Whole Foods I would find myself exhausted and unable to manage my time at all. The constant human interaction put me in a cycle of burn out and then work again. If I wanted to get any writing done I ended up taking time off for that just so I could overcome the time I needed to recover from that burnout.

Now that I work in an office environment though I have the time and the energy to not only get all my work done–but to also keep some of my creative ideas going in the background. This has been amazing for my productivity as it assures I won’t get to board with a task at work, and also means I will plenty of things to write the next time I get a chance to do that.

That’s all for now, see everyone next time.